I started thinking though about horror movies, of all things. If you know me you know I have a deep love of B horror movies such as Sharktopus, or Orca, or Mega Shark vs. Giant Squid. Yeah that kind of B movie. E made for SyFy kind of B movie. I think the main reason I love these and hate real horror movies is that I hate being scared, and I can laugh at these. During every one of these movies, my favorite thing to do is to talk to the characters before they die. Tell them "I wouldn't sleep with that person" or "I wouldn't cuss like that" because I know they are going to die and have to explain that to Christ (well at least they would if it was real).
I have never really considered the real fact that they probably wouldn't do that either if they new they were going to meet Christ. Maybe not, but if they REALLY believed they were going to meet Christ, like I believe, when they die they wouldn't. Which got me wondering what I am doing that I would do different if I REALLY believed I could meet Christ at any second.
1. I would serve my wife better- I work hard as I am sure you do too. I serve people all day, and don't gripe, in fact I love it. I live for it. Yet, when I get home I want to unwind. I want to be served, I want to relax, I want to not think and who gets the neglect? My wife. She watches me serve others all day long yet a simple task becomes a chore when I get home and want to unwind. How sad is that? The human I love most (other than Jesus Himself) is her and yet I am least likely to serve her with a smile, go the extra mile, encourage. If it was my last week on earth I would serve with a smile EVERYTIME. I would go the extra mile without being asked. I would deeply desire for her to remember me, not for how great I served others, but how great I served God and HER.
2. I would deal with my sin NOW- The speaker talked about his struggle with porn and said "I wonder if I would struggle with porn this week if I knew it was my last week on earth." My obvious answer is "NO." I have watched the horror movies and in my conversations with the characters learned I don't want to explain that to Christ. Sad that I would think that as long as I fix it a week before I die it's ok. If I wouldn't do that the last week why am I ok with it now. Why am I ok with my anger, my impatience, all my junk and believe it will just get fixed when the reality is I don't know if this is my last week or not. You want to deal with your sin don't just think "this might be my last week" convince yourself it is. Die to yourself, offer yourself as a living sacrifice.
3. I wouldn't wait for perfect conditions to have the conversations I need to have- I am a procrastinator, and I hate failure. I know no one loves it, but I don't get over failure easy at all. I relive it over and over in my mind (I know, I should see number 2 on this list and i promise you God will help me change this in my life). So what do I do, I wait for conditions to be absolutely perfect so that there is no possibility of failure. This is the human side of me that actually ends up stifling God's Spirit from moving in the moment, and it needs to stop.
So what!?! So what do I do now? It's easy and difficult at the same time. Now my job is to believe I am dying not just because I want to be a better Christian, a better husband, a better pastor, but because it is the truth. The truth is my end will come like a thief in the night. Whether it is my death or Christ's return it will come and I might not have the luxury of knowing when my last week is. So I beg you, please join me in living with the joy and peace of knowing we may leave this earth in a week and we need to make it count.
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